There'll be days like this

I'm contemplating re-admission.
That's how utterly crap I feel today, I'm contemplating going back to hospital.
See in hospital you don't have to be around people and if you feel like sleeping all day you can. You don't have to make hard choices, in fact, all of the choices are easier. Choosing what to wear is a doddle because you only have a suitcase worth of clothing, plus the answer is probably 'tracksuit pants'.
I want to be protected from the world and I want to be able to cry all day, which is OK when you're an inpatient at a psych hospital.
I saw both my psychiatrist and psychologist today and both of them mentioned that after a psychotic episode it's normal to have a depressed mood.
I'm so glad I'm doing something normal but I wish it wasn't this.
I wonder if I discharged myself too quickly. I may seriously go back. Let's see how I'm feeling tomorrow.